Healed to Heal by JTR
Nothing seems to go her way
Happiness never seems to stay
She is screaming out for attention, some way, any way
For some hero to take her away from this life so meaningless and grey
Every once in a while, she will pray
Shell pray and pray and pray and pray
That when she goes to school she will stop being some cheerleader’s prey
But when she finally musters up the courage to go its just business as usual, just another day
Shell do just about anything for someone to stay
There seems to be no one and she feels alone
She cries out in a defeated tone
“Won't someone melt my heart of stone?
No. Because sometimes it seems that nobody cares
All people like to do is just stare
Maybe it's my clothes, my music, my fearful glares
But when I am alone the quiet moments are when Im really scared
Not many come to save me
Even worse my parents don't even care about their baby
They're the ones that made me?!?
Those crazies?!?
Who drink too much which makes their demeanor crazy
Are the ones who are supposed to take care of me
All I do is smile all the time so no one knows
How much my depression and panic attacks grow
I act cute to keep quiet my tortured soul
So that if anyone asked if I need anything, I say "no"
And at the same time I'm dying to be whole.”
Darling, I know your hurting to be heard
To just spread your wings and fly like a bird away from this place
But instead no one listens and you get chewed up like a cow's curd and get your words spat in your face
Forget those hypocrites whos judgements are blurred
Who they want you to be is just plain absurd
Run to God, and find peace and love in his Word
“His word? Run to God?
You wanna know how long I’ve waited for God
Too long have I wallowed in the muddy waters of my life and too far have I clawed
My way out to where I am, and where was your God?
Oh that’s right. You and your God are nothing but frauds.
So please stop talking about your made up story
If your God is real he must not have too much glory.
Because trust me you don’t want to know my story.”
Baby, listen, I know the truth, and God loves you
When you feel alone remind yourself over and over again
He’ll be by your side and he’ll even carry you
You must realize that He wants you
He also wants you to
Heal others because you know how bad it hurts
Break free of your bonds because his skin was broken first
Bring those you love to His well so they shall never thirst
And believe that his birth
Caused a chain reaction
And didn't change just a mere fraction
But all of you, so go and take action
Live your life to the fullest in his name
Praise the One True God without any shame
Preach the word and lay hands on the sick, blind and lame
And I guarantee you will never be the same
“Ill never be the same? Huh. That’s nice.
Look I know why you continue to persist
But what Ive done is as permanent as these tattoos on my arms and scars on my wrist
I tried to fix myself but my vision is shrouded by a mist that consists of a lot of my story’s turns and twists
While you were raised on open hands I was born with clenched fists
One time I went to one of the services, and the alter call was made, but I wouldn’t budge
Because as soon as I walked in, the way people looked at me I knew I was their new target to judge
So there you have it. That’s why I don’t need your God. That is why I have my grudge.
So you and your hateful religion can get in line. Ive had enough dissapointments for one life.
Its been too harsh of an environment, and too much strife
Too many people whose words cut like a knife
For me to accept this ‘eternal life’”
Darling I know all about this situation you’ve been placed in
All the evil you’ve been facing is a road block of Satan
you’ve been building with the wrong cornerstone and basin
I know youre lifes been full of let downs and frustration
But God will lead you not into temptation