Nikki by JTR
Baby girl I see you sitting here
With your eyes full of tears and your heart full of fear
Asking yourself, “What am I to do?
Another boy left me for someone else to screw.”
Let me be the first to tell you, don’t give your heart to some fool
I don’t know why you’re trying
Your heart is of diamonds but quarters is all you get and everyone’s been buying
Sweetie, all of these punks keep lying to your sweet face so you’ll keep crying
Until the tears wash away the pain
Sometimes you think you’re too stupid to even have a brain
I’m here to tell you a different story
You kept all of you bad habits and feelings in an inventory
To make sure no one knows your story
Your story is locked up in a drawer of socks in the back of your mind
And to make sure no one sees behind your transparent mask
You cover it up with duct tape and make up so that the numbness will last
Darling, you say that all you need is a drink
All alcohol does is make you think that you’re superhuman
When sometimes you feel that you’re barely human
You just want someone that you can love
But you base love off on things you should have never been a part of
Love, I know the real thing
It can make you smile and your heart sing of the joy that he will give you
That’s all I want for you
I know that I haven’t been a good example
But don’t let your new faith be trampled
By the demons that want you dead
Putting all of these evil thoughts in your head
Making you feel like you can follow your own lead when in reality you’re alone crying in your bed
I know God wasn’t there when you called
But he will be there the next time you fall
And you said to me, “You show off your God like new clothes at the mall
Well I’ve seen it all. Your God just wants me to fall.”
Girl, you’re in your bed weeping when at this time of night you should be sleeping
And thinking of the days to come
Of your husband and kids, wouldn’t that be fun?
But you wont be happy until you’ve become beautiful in the eyes of the world
Who cares about the world? You’re beautiful now.
Who will love you forever? God loves you now.
All you got to do is change now
Listen I know that we’ve talked since a quarter past eleven
But I’ll do whatever I can for you to be in heaven